Sunday, November 12, 2017

Gaining Focus

I set my phone down and the world came back into focus.  The sun shining through the windows, car seats on either side of me, my sweet baby in my arms.  I was sitting on the floor of my van nursing my precious 5 week old, because, well that's just how I do things.  I looked up and realized that I'd been mindlessly scrolling on my phone and not giving mind to the things right in front of me.  I tend to pick up my phone when I'm nursing, because it feels like wasted time.  I'm stuck in a chair, or in the bed, or on the floor of my van and I can't really do much else.  So I Christmas shop, or get on Facebook, or play a game.  When all the while, a cute little baby is snuggled up next to me.  And not just any cute baby.  MY cute baby.  My LAST baby. And I'm already grieving the time passed. The squishy snuggles I will no longer have, all too soon. The sweet baby clothes that I am no longer storing in the basement when he grows out of them, like I've always done in the past.
I had put down my phone because he had stopped eating, and it was time to switch him to the other side. But once my surroundings came into focus, so did a lot more. I looked down at my baby, happily eating and looking right up at me. Asking to have a conversation with me between his little eyes and mine. I am the center of his world right now and he is asking to be the center of mine. And while he can't be all the time (I do have 2 other kids that I love fiercely), I could probably give him this time. After all, pretty soon he will be eating mac and cheese and daddy is gonna be way cooler than me, anyway.

 Whether you are a believer or not, what is blinding your mind so that you cannot see what is important?

"The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God." 2 Corinthians 4:4