Thursday, January 2, 2014

Good Enough For Me

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Do you ever just feel disgusted with your life?  I'm mean, just totally disgusted?  No matter how many wonderful blessings you have, somehow, you just sorta wanna vomit?  I've been feeling that way lately.  I'm not sure if it's because things are sort of uncertain (as in, I can't see the future and really really wish I could), if it's because I'm jealous of things going on in other people's lives, or if I'm just simply bored.  It's probably a mix of them all.  2014 is here.  Brandon's work is currently unsteady, lots of exciting things are happening to those around me, and I realized that in only 6 short months, I will be 30.  Gross.  And to top it off...I don't feel like I ever went through that point where I was totally cute and my life was totally fun.  Here I am, pinching pennies, living in constant practicality, being a responsible adult, and still have acne.  What's with that anyway?


The thing is...it's never gonna be enough.  There will always be something shinier that I can't buy.  There will always be clothes that could make me cuter.  There will always be fun adventures that I simply can't go on.  What it boils down to, or what is needs to boil down to, is that that's OK.  Things don't have to be perfect.  They just need to be good enough for me.

In her song, Tennessee, Mindy Smith says:
"Tennessee, you've been good to me
Yes, I've come to believe you're where I wanna be
You may not be what everybody needs
but Tennessee, you're good enough for me."

 So here's the thing, Nicole's Life....you've been good to me and you're where I wanna be.  You may not be what everybody needs, but you're good enough for me.

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"Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!"  

3 comments:

  1. Hi Nicole, happy new year! Yes to your question about feeling stuck and disgusted! Truly the only thing that ever gets me out of it is focusing on gratitude (like thank you Thursdays on the blog - bringing it back this year!) have you seen this? It's awesome: http://365grateful.com/original-365-project

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  2. Well said Nicole. You are dead on. There will ALWAYS be people who have more stuff than you...but that doesn't mean they are happier. Trust me. I've had them in my office and heard the things they have struggled with.

    And the fact is...none of us will ever be good enough. That's precisely why Jesus came. To help us with all of our "not-good-enoughness". The antidote? You've nailed it: I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again. Hang in there and keep praising!

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  3. Oh my goodness, please don't ever think you're alone in feeling this way. I mean seriously, acne as an adult?! Was just feeling exasperated about that yesterday. And pinching pennies, uncertainty, practicality and responsibility? There's something about this third baby that makes me long more than ever to not be where we are now. But this IS where we are now, and I can focus right now on making it good enough. Because contentment and happiness and even cuteness are within reach in THIS moment.

    I'm reading In Between by Jeff Goins right now (Well, when I'm not feeling terrible with morning sickness), and Shauna Niequist's foreward really spoke to me on this. She writes about her friend that went through a major loss and while talking about it, also shared sweet stories about her kids and asked about Shauna's life. Shauna says about that conversation, "She wasn't waiting for the good part. She knows that THESE are the good parts, even while they're the bad parts."

    Keep looking for the good, because they're mixed in there with the bad :)

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